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(Tuesday, April 29, 2008/11:32 PM)

vanish



i'll make it a fast one.
goodbye.


i told you so.


...



okay fine on second thought.





a few more for the camera i guess.
can't get any better than this now, can it.
after all i stayed up just a bit longer for this.
happy now? i guess i'm satisfied.


at least now i have a mural to contemplate about.


(Sunday, April 27, 2008/9:11 PM)

skip
click 5 ad on the television.
spare me.




i guess tatsuya knows where he's going.
it'll be fun anyway.
hope he has a monique to send him a card.




i skipped a lot of level pics.
couldn't be bothered to take them.
oh well i guess.
still kicking around with my wrench.

and that's it i guess.
time to finish up some ss.
melvin has taught me to notice some of its content.

i mean of course not.
why would i notice the OOOOO parts of a OOOOOOOOOO textbook.
well off i go anyway.


to this i say.
nothing ventured.


(Friday, April 25, 2008/8:29 PM)

confidentiality








well anyway this is where i'm up to.
i guess a bit of this brightens things up a little.
well, maybe not.
but then again who cares.

of more predictions and revision.
working for something was never this relaxing.
yet my hopes are still up there.


i wonder if i can really do it.


(Thursday, April 24, 2008/10:30 PM)

deception
well my head's tilting as i write.
let's see how long i can withstand this unbalanced world.
which has always been this way.





and this is where i am up to.
no violence yet.
too lazy to take such quality shots.

hm. well there's nothing much else left to say.
and yes.
despite all this non-conformist action.


i'll still get through this somehow.


(Wednesday, April 23, 2008/10:05 PM)

genius




Chousai Kenbo Sengen
MOSAIC.WAV
Chousai Kenbo Sengen
[0:01/04:07] [|----------]














somebody pinch me.
oh well.
maybe one day i'll put this up.
then again it's crazy.

so maybe not.

well while we're all in this preparing mood.
i'll be blasting this (which is rare for my personality) at 300x maybe.
as if my headphone volume can go so high.

well so off i go then.
no well wishes.
no prayer.

just wishful thinking and a fight against all odds.


i'll get there alive somehow.


(Monday, April 21, 2008/9:51 PM)

clutter






i have too many images to put up these days.
so there's no space for one more.
maybe when it goes down then i'll put it up.
in some sort of memory.

oh well.
it's coming closer.
wait till it smacks me in the face.
and i'll get to work.


and hope that i'll come out alive in the end.


(Sunday, April 20, 2008/11:07 PM)

satisfy



well i can't help but pity squigley.
he wins.

well besides that.
i guess i have nothing left to say yet again.
this new wiki link game is.
well i'll have no more time soon enough.

so off i go.
i guess we all have nothing better to say.
except rant about how life is being unfair.
when we don't see the lovely field right in front of us.

but i do.


and i'm walking towards it for now.


(Saturday, April 19, 2008/5:11 PM)

autocracy



well.
i guess being under it is not fun.
but watching it is.

and that's the best bud i see blooming in spring.

my revision is still chugging along slowly.
not like there's any need to hurry anyway.
as long as i don't stay still.
i'll get there somehow.


after all, drifting just means letting someone else decide.


(Thursday, April 17, 2008/10:27 PM)

tribulations




All The Way
Mikuni Shimokawa
all the way
[1:35/04:37] [---|-------]

it's been awhile since i listened to kino's journey music.
i remember the aspiring youngster i was back then.
how time flies.

soon enough i shall end up rewatching it.
and i will reminisce about those old days.
when i took the bus early every morning.
when i went to macs to buy myself a second breakfast.

i would walk into class and turn on the tv.
i remember the show broadcast at 6am was Yan Can Cook.
i would sit down at my seat, and chomping on my sausage mcmuffin,
i would watch the tv, and be at peace.

and look where i am now.

well i do sort of ponder about such things from time to time.
but sadly, materialistic situations leave me with none of the most precious resource.
time.
because we never know when it's going to run out.

so off to my work i go.
i shall pass, and hopefully get a chance to glance,
at the lovely scenery of this road that i travel.
after all.


it's such a beautiful world.


(Wednesday, April 16, 2008/7:02 PM)

just


evar indeed.

well once again.
i shall proclaim.
i'm way back on schedule.
so i guess.

i'll have to fail somehow.

and that's about it for today.
i'm not really in any mood for writing or whatnot.
and besides, i have to start practising.

so away.
i go.


sometimes things never seem as close as they really were.
or maybe it's because i've been staring out far too long.


(Tuesday, April 15, 2008/8:44 PM)

withdrawal







so well.
i don't have much to say today.
i am horribly behind on work.
and exams are closing in.

so i guess i'll just have to find a way to do everything at once then.
maybe a bit of horo first though.
i sense another decent spring show.
that's brings it up to 3 or 4.

which should be more than enough.

that's settled then.
now it will take either a miracle.
or i can just do it the normal way.
and fail as expected.

besides, i'm not afraid anyway.

so well i guess i shall end here.
i know the miracle is just beside me.
i'm just too lazy to turn towards it for now.
and expectations are just an illusion.

the grass is green enough on my side.


so leave me be.


(Monday, April 14, 2008/7:21 PM)

enthusiasm



what are the odds indeed.





well that was over.
no. i don't care for what everyone else does.
but i've got another two books of horo.
and an outstanding loan of 6 dollars.

i guess everything's all right so far.


when a person you trust a lot gives you a bad impression.
of another person.
that other person. looks.
well.
evil now.

then again maybe it's digressing.
but i'd prefer not to know.
after all.
there are many faces to a person.

it just depends on which one or which several ones one looks at.


yeah so well.
from now on i have to help out with chores.
i hope i learn how to cook or something.
that may help me in the future.

after all i don't foresee any chance marraige.
and being alone has always been my thing.
sooner or later i'll be showing only my "business" smile.
to everyone else.

i wish this mp3 encoder would hurry.
oh well.


so curse and swear,
for all this wear and tear,
it have been through,
has all been for naught.

stop and stare,
at the vast open prairie,
with the long grass blades,
rustling along with the wind.

sit back and relax,
for the world has been taxed,
with such wicked beings,
that can only be us.

argues and disputes,
make all of them mute,
to your ears,
while deep within hides your great fears.

wake up and take heart,
the time's come for us to part,
as i take my leave,
in my eyes i only see.

straight on.

down the long dusty road that carries me.
nowhere to hide and nowhere to flee.
i will never know when this road will end.
but when it does i know it will bend.


bend towards the prairie with the soft, rustling grass.


(Sunday, April 13, 2008/8:22 PM)

besides



*EDIT*
i forgot to say.
i passed by 3 marks.
so.
hooray.

i decided to put this on today anyway.
and remove the one from yesterday.
because i realise if you scroll over it the quicktime reloads itself.

i don't know about now. but.
oh well.

another song done.
they're all relatively easy.
but oh well.
if only i had scores for the one i was transcribing.

but then it wouldn't be called transcribing anymore, would it.


spring is.
about flowers.
i remember one.
let's see now.

okay i don't remember the name.

i know it represents hope.
and that's all i know.


so should we say.
that spring still has hope.
yes i shall say it.
spring still has hope.

amidst all the banter and laughter,
at least i know.
there is still one that sticks out.
quiet people are the more interesting ones.

maybe i should go back to being quiet for awhile.

after all, nights filled with contemplation of my existence,
aren't very good for me.
i shall just find rest then,
and try to shrug off everything that is crawling onto me.

i don't like it.
thinking selfishly like that.
but i have wondered so ever since i knew about what i was wondering about.
i guess that is one thing i'll never be able to explain.

and no one will be unable to understand.

maybe i will get to know the truth.
maybe i won't.
but what's important now.
is that i shouldn't expect anything.

after all the higher you climb the harder you fall.
and a watched kettle never boils.


of dissonance and clashing chords.
i wonder why i don't put my dilemma down in words.
their full meaning incomprehensible to anyone but me.
maybe now's not the time.

one day i may go on a journey.
along an abandoned train track.
and at the abandoned station.
i shall find someone there.


and we shall write about the dilemma together.


(Saturday, April 12, 2008/7:58 PM)

astound
oh well.
i guess i couldn't do a lot.
maybe you are right.
but i, like that company.

won't go down without a fight.


but then again tussles in real life are by far ordinary.
i guess this is why i prefer avoiding the bigger roads.
sticking to this path was for better, i suppose.
besides, it's not like me to be like this.


SeLecT
Kikuchi Hajime
True Tears Original Soundtrack




of more instrumentals and divine comedies.
i guess this is how they brand things epic.
i'm really more or less non-conformist anyway.
in the passive sense.

so go ahead.
call me whatever you want.
because the consequences, whether it be controlled by me or not.

will be targeted at only you.



spring is rather.
how should i say this.
ambiguous.
turns out that the explicit one has actually some worth watching.

well that's only the special case.
better than nothing i guess.


well, jokes are jokes.
i feel like taking some revenge.
my brother's stamping his feet like some elephant on a rampage.
i guess that's what he is.

no, he's not my target.

but then again, what do we stand to gain from it?
who knows, maybe joy.
actions give way to emotions.
and emotions can portray anything.

okay, that was long enough i guess.
i shall end here then.

and melvin.
that's spammer banner for you.



they are preaching on barren ground.
i am on the other side, away from the sound.
following along the road which is my guide,
the grass will always be greener.


on my side.


(Friday, April 11, 2008/10:13 PM)

recurring



one more inch, one more road.
that would be all we need to go.
this desolate place i cannot stay.
i'm afraid i'll have to leave today.

once more for the camera,
once more for the shot.
once more for the memories,
in that picture wrought.

time is scarce,
of formats and rars.
yet in all the hurry,
i shall not be worried.

instead i shall go,
at my own, slow pace.
even though time is running out,
and i must make haste.

so off i go,
goodbye desolate land.
leaving behind,
my footprints in the sand.




besides.
my rhyming sounds better.

oh well.


back to horo i guess.
after all i have something i am interested in playing now.

maybe it can pull off properly.

just maybe.

oh and i was thinking about the om.
oh well.
i guess it's second nature to me now.

but i just shrug it off.


because i know i'll be better off without it anyway.


(Thursday, April 10, 2008/11:28 PM)

express



fine maybe once in awhile won't hurt.


didn't have time to post.
my brother needs to reach school early tomorrow.
so i have to wake up early too.
my, this post is being rather materialistic.

oh well.

of divine comedies and stakes.


it's not that he doesn't have a choice.
he chooses the longer way.
he chooses the more painful way.
that's all.

even if it may not be more beneficial in the end.

he'll be satisfied he chose this way.


(Wednesday, April 09, 2008/11:28 PM)

consequently
it kind of amazes me that i've caught up.
oh well.
at least that gives me a bit of work to do.
now i have to print the page and get down to business tomorrow.

but then again tomorrow.
oh well.
but it's better to do a bit than to do nothing i suppose.
so i shall do.

ef instrumentals are nice.
i remember one sounding like a game i played long ago. anarchy.
well it ends up that i can't find the song for that.
who cares anyway.

so back i go.
back into this cold world.
where the winters are long and the summers short.
and the ground is a sheet of shining silver.


that was imagination anyway.
the sun is getting hotter each day.


(Tuesday, April 08, 2008/7:40 PM)

spring
what joy.
okay fine, i'll be blunt.
spring sucks.

but there's a time for everything i guess.
especially exams.
so maybe i should be glad that.
i'm getting a bit more time to study.

back to the drawing board it is then.
it has been raining these few days.
but the rain is nice.
it helps me think.


back to the book, i guess.
yes. the book.


(Monday, April 07, 2008/9:44 PM)

conclusion


one here.


...







and one there.

...

well i guess it ended wonderfully just like that.

i have to go do some work.
it's been awhile since i said that.
but what can i say.
it's coming soon.

but the way they make it look like there's a sequel.
oh well.
everyone has to wait at some point in time.

i have no time to sit in a corner and ponder.
even i have to speed up a little now.
i'm slightly behind time


oh well.
to end off.


As time revolves for thousands of years, the wind remains constant.
It absorbs our feelings and delivers them.


Voices are calling out. voices which otherwise cannot reach anyone.
But listen carefully, because you will surely hear them.


Let us face straight ahead. Let us walk while holding our heads up high.
Even if the road continues without an end, you are never alone.


Wind -a breath of heart-


Can you feel the breath in your heart?


(Sunday, April 06, 2008/10:28 PM)

lost
*EDIT*:
touchy bamboo blade is the best.
and they conclude that part so fast too.
oh well. it's everything in one.

...



too bad there's this part of the colour sinfest that's suggestive.
oh well.

i have run out of things to write.
better stop playing before i really have nothing to write everyday.

and i have to continue reading.


and thus i shall end and continue.


(Saturday, April 05, 2008/7:57 AM)

fast
just wanted to say.
maybe sometimes things aren't going.
the way we want them to go.

ah well.

back to more auras and holy angst.


(Wednesday, April 02, 2008/10:35 PM)

experience
oh well.
everyone knows that the road has been driven on before.
we tread unknowingly on these paths once coated with blood.
and we don't even care.

in the end.
the hard work paid off in a way.
it's quite saddening to see what you waste.
but if you look at what you gain.

it'll be much better.


i still don't have much space left in my hard drive.
i wonder how much more it can handle.
oh well.
maybe i won't even have time to watch what's filling up the drive.

but i keep it knowing that when it's all over i can.
and peacefully at that.

and come to think of it i still have to read my book.
oh well i'll do my best to hurry it.


and still while everyone's rushing along.
i continue down the dirt path slowly.
the dirt path that has been stained by blood many times over.
now hides a lore with many secrets within.

and i ride this road.
and i'm proud of it.